Mood: Frustrated.
Frustrated with the state of my life, where I can't even talk to some people because either I'm embarrassed because of things I've done in the past or I'm afraid to find out what they really think of me.
Frustrated because I don't seem to be able to do even the simplest of things without messing up.
Frustrated because my friends are suddenly all needy but won't even tell me what the fucking problem is.
Frustrated because I don't think studying alone is enough to get good marks this quarter.
This is crap. It's times like these that make you want to just go to sleep, and never wake up. But persevere, we must, if only to ensure that we don't miss some moment of happiness. We know that moment will pass, and yet, in truth, that's what we all live for.
Unfortunately for many, we often go several months without a good moment. Such is life, I suppose.
EDIT(1:08PST): Eh, tired. I'm done with studying. I was only able to prepare for three of the five possible prompts, but I'm still pretty confident. I'll turn in early tonight, and wake up early tomorrow.
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Well, I suppose it's time for a "background" post.
I'm a fairly normal guy. I'm Asian, and enjoy typical things like anime and video games. I spend far too much time on the computer (at least TWELVE hours a day are spent on my laptop) but would love the opportunity to do something else. I'm not unpopular; I belong to a group of friends and am fairly well connected. I'm really barely passing by socially, as I don't have any defining qualities that set me apart. I'm not the best at anything, nor am I notorious for anything. I'm there if people need me, but people usually prefer to ask someone else. I have a fairly easy time making friends, but only with people that are somewhat similar to me. I'd say I'm in that "acceptable" zone. I'm told that I'm fairly good-looking, but even I can tell I don't quite have the temperament to be "popular". I like attention, but have the tendency to check myself (this is a habit that others have noticed and spoken to me about; I will often stop smiling abruptly after laughing for no reason whatsoever). As for romance, I have been interested in the same girl for about six years. I don't know what kind of qualities I look for in the opposite gender, but it may be interesting to note that the girl I mentioned isn't really even my friend at all; she's not what most people would call "nice", as she's very sarcastic and ignores people often.
I like music a lot, but am not a very talented musician. I have basic abilities in playing the piano, guitar, viola, violin, and cello, but I'm not particularly good at anything. I would like to be a skilled guitarist with a nice electric, but.. eh. I don't know what "genre" of music I prefer; I enjoy music pleasant to my ears. I listen to music in languages I don't understand as well as the ones I do. Some examples of non-English bands I enjoy are FLOW and Asian Kung-Fu Generation.
I am a church-going Christian. I belong to the Evangelical faith. However, I'm not a very devout believer, and am most certainly not what one would consider a "christfag". I can't even remember the last time I earnestly prayed or read the Bible, but I guess I do live in hope that there is someone out there looking out for me at times. I subscribe to no particular political party, but I do prefer Democrats as they seem to be slightly less hypocritical.
Well, that's me in a box. On your screen.
I'm a fairly normal guy. I'm Asian, and enjoy typical things like anime and video games. I spend far too much time on the computer (at least TWELVE hours a day are spent on my laptop) but would love the opportunity to do something else. I'm not unpopular; I belong to a group of friends and am fairly well connected. I'm really barely passing by socially, as I don't have any defining qualities that set me apart. I'm not the best at anything, nor am I notorious for anything. I'm there if people need me, but people usually prefer to ask someone else. I have a fairly easy time making friends, but only with people that are somewhat similar to me. I'd say I'm in that "acceptable" zone. I'm told that I'm fairly good-looking, but even I can tell I don't quite have the temperament to be "popular". I like attention, but have the tendency to check myself (this is a habit that others have noticed and spoken to me about; I will often stop smiling abruptly after laughing for no reason whatsoever). As for romance, I have been interested in the same girl for about six years. I don't know what kind of qualities I look for in the opposite gender, but it may be interesting to note that the girl I mentioned isn't really even my friend at all; she's not what most people would call "nice", as she's very sarcastic and ignores people often.
I like music a lot, but am not a very talented musician. I have basic abilities in playing the piano, guitar, viola, violin, and cello, but I'm not particularly good at anything. I would like to be a skilled guitarist with a nice electric, but.. eh. I don't know what "genre" of music I prefer; I enjoy music pleasant to my ears. I listen to music in languages I don't understand as well as the ones I do. Some examples of non-English bands I enjoy are FLOW and Asian Kung-Fu Generation.
I am a church-going Christian. I belong to the Evangelical faith. However, I'm not a very devout believer, and am most certainly not what one would consider a "christfag". I can't even remember the last time I earnestly prayed or read the Bible, but I guess I do live in hope that there is someone out there looking out for me at times. I subscribe to no particular political party, but I do prefer Democrats as they seem to be slightly less hypocritical.
Well, that's me in a box. On your screen.
Awesome.
A friend of mine (female, underage) was recently locked out of her computer by her dad. This displeased me, as she kept me company on AIM on late nights when I had to study for tests and such.
Fortunately, I have succeeded in formatting my USB Flash Drive to be boot-able on startup, and installed a copy of Linux and some password-cracking software to it. It took me a few tries (had to download a half-gig .iso, which is kinda tiresome when you're also downloading about 17gigs of video... on a 54.0 Mbps connection), but I finally got it in the end. So now my friend can get on and off her computer whenever she wants.
This is the reason I spend so much time on the computer. The moment I get when I pop the flash drive into my desktop, turn it on and spam F12, wait about two minutes, then see "F23F42Y44" pop up on my screen.. is priceless. And it's so much better when I know it's going towards a good cause.
Of course, that also means that no computer is safe from my diabolical schemes anymore. In goes my flash drive, out comes your passwords.
I look forward to having long conversations with the aforementioned friend as well as the lulz I'll gain from "hacking" into my other friends' computers.
So how was your day? Oh, wait. I won't be able to hear you over the sound of my own awesomeness.
Fortunately, I have succeeded in formatting my USB Flash Drive to be boot-able on startup, and installed a copy of Linux and some password-cracking software to it. It took me a few tries (had to download a half-gig .iso, which is kinda tiresome when you're also downloading about 17gigs of video... on a 54.0 Mbps connection), but I finally got it in the end. So now my friend can get on and off her computer whenever she wants.
This is the reason I spend so much time on the computer. The moment I get when I pop the flash drive into my desktop, turn it on and spam F12, wait about two minutes, then see "F23F42Y44" pop up on my screen.. is priceless. And it's so much better when I know it's going towards a good cause.
Of course, that also means that no computer is safe from my diabolical schemes anymore. In goes my flash drive, out comes your passwords.
I look forward to having long conversations with the aforementioned friend as well as the lulz I'll gain from "hacking" into my other friends' computers.
So how was your day? Oh, wait. I won't be able to hear you over the sound of my own awesomeness.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Obligatory "First Post".
I'm taking a break from.. everything, so I will probably update this blog faithfully. Over the next few days I'll describe my current position in life, as well as my views on several subjects. This blog exists in order that I might have a creative "outlet" of sorts, as well as input from the largest community known to man- the Internet.
Basic stats:
Name: Aaron.
DOB: 16 September, 1988
Occupation: Student
Political Party: None
Contact:
aim: xLnfinityZero
e-mail: faceless.aaron@gmail
Basic stats:
Name: Aaron.
DOB: 16 September, 1988
Occupation: Student
Political Party: None
Contact:
aim: xLnfinityZero
e-mail: faceless.aaron@gmail
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