The Infinite Zero

2008-12-14T20:39:00.000-08:00

Well, haven't posted on this thing for a while now. I've decided my life isn't all that important enough to blog about, so.. I'll post something every now and then when I have something to vent.

2008-11-08T14:14:00.001-08:00

That was lame. Looks like I'm just back where I started, but worse.

Thank God for alcohol.

Halloween

2008-11-01T10:54:00.001-07:00

This was easily the most pathetic Halloween I've had since I was six and I tore a hole in my bag of treats without noticing I was leaving a candy trail.

I was ditched by my friends, who took along my date, who had told me she was going to stay home, but instead took my spot and went to drink. I spent the night listening to mellow music and hanging out on /b/.

2008-10-26T13:40:00.001-07:00

Ehhh. I'm hung over.

I guess it wouldn't have been that easy for me to get into the good life.. went to a club dance with my lady friend; everyone was high and/or drunk, her ex-ex from another town came..

And.. for the first time in my life, I drank. Vodka, in fact. She offered it.

I just want a fricking hug.

cue victory theme!

2008-10-22T20:22:00.000-07:00

Life is great. Could be better, but still far beyond what I've ever dreamed for.

Nothing much to report, really, except for the fact that some newfag drew some shitty memes on a whiteboard. And for some reason quite a few people know about Chanology.

2008-10-21T18:00:00.001-07:00

Well, due to the fact that I have managed to somehow gain a social life, I haven't updated this in some time. Oh, well; it's not like there's anyone reading this.

Life.. is great.

I'm having fun, which means I don't have to be philosophical or at all smart or witty, unless you're particularly good-looking. Thus, sorry, no deep post for you today.

Well, I do have one problem. Should I grow out my hair or cut it short?

Turnaround

2008-10-15T16:06:00.000-07:00

Well. This was unexpected. I'm not quite sure what happened, but I seem to have suddenly gathered a large amount of female friends (all disconnected; I don't mean I thrust myself into some group).

If you are a guy, and you are reading this, take note: I have found the secret to getting the ladies. No matter how deep you think they are, all women love shameless, shallow flattering.

Life is looking good!

2008-10-13T19:48:00.000-07:00

I like this guy. Hahahah.

2008-10-11T08:54:00.000-07:00

Hm. Lots of interesting things going on.

- I have been advised that I can "do so much better" than the girl I love, and to find someone else.
- A friend of mine is considering asking out another friend of mine. I don't really know how I feel about this..
- Another friend is planning on "hooking me up" with another friend.
- I recently deleted my tags from Facebook pictures featuring me and my ex. I'm hoping there won't be drama over that.
- BLIZZCON!

Not really all that much to say. Or, rather, BlizzCon's making me too excited to type any BAWWWW-related things.

One of those days..

2008-10-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

Eh. I'm in that mood again where I'm feeling really emo and don't think there's really any point to my living. I'm not at all suicidal, but just.. cynical, I guess. Calculating. My life doesn't really make any impact on others but to burden them; I haven't done anything all that great and I don't even think I'm in the position to do so.

My friends are blah. I don't feel all that close to them, and I don't really know anything about them at all. Come to think of it, they all have their own little social networks, ones that I'm not a part of. Simply put, I'm extraneous. I serve no meaningful purpose.

My life kind of sucks right now. I have to either look like a jackass and be shunned by the people I like to be around, or I have to.. be quiet and completely escape their vision? I'm not all that close to anyone right now, not to the point where I can just walk up to someone and say hi without having something to actually say. I have to ask about things that I know more about, just to start a conversation, and even then, the conversation is over after the question is answered.

Also, there's this girl... and she's starting to cling to my friend, quite obviously. Which pisses me off because he doesn't even acknowledge that she's doing anything of the sort. I'm not so anti-social that I misinterpret a "Hi" and a hug as a proposal, but.. going out of the way, away from her usual friends, to sit near, and playing the piano with? Come on.

My new hobby seems to be turning on music, keeping it at full volume, and sort of napping with my head right over the speakers. It seems to help; white noise just isn't doing it for me anymore.

Oh, and my laptop's being crappy. My CD drive won't work. ):

Republicans and Christians

2008-10-02T18:55:00.001-07:00

I don't know what prompted me to write this post; the basic ideas have been in the back of my head for a while now, but I guess the whole thing with the Vice Presidential debates (which I can't watch right now, as my laptop is being screwy and my television seems to be refusing to accept any signals) may have been the cause.

I have a huge problem with Republicans. I am not a Democrat, nor do I profess to be one, but even so I can see how phony their entire system is. Republicans seem to only want to win elections and gain power, without any regards as to the actual ability of those they endorse. Republican candidates cannot have any opinions unpopular with the Republican base; if they once had an opinion that did not coincide with other Republican policies, they would have to change those opinions (see John McCain).

Another problem I have with Republicans is that they seem so sure, at all times, that anything they believe is right, and that thus any reasoned argument with their beliefs is.. unreasonable. They seem to believe that they alone have the Truth, and that no one else does. Whether this is a by-product of the fact that much of "God's Own Party" belongs to the Evangelical Christian faith is uncertain.

Let me make one thing clear- I consider myself a Christian. In fact, to go even further, I consider myself an EVANGELICAL Christian. That's right. I'm one of them. However, a disturbing trend I've found in many churches is their opinion that simply "believing" is enough to be saved, and that such a thing cannot be debated because it is the Truth. Of course, Protestantism was created as a religion that stressed salvation by faith, not through good works, but the problem is that many Christians don't know what believing is.

Simply being able to say that you believe in one thing or another cannot possibly be enough. If you truly believe, in ANY god, the teachings of your religion should be reflected in your own life. There's no point in stressing that faith alone will save you, because through faith, good works should be a part of your life. Of course, to agnostics and atheists, it could be said that those good works are the only things good about Christianity. Unfortunately, with the Reformation, our little sect scrapped the good works and kept the faith. In other words, according to agnostics and atheists, there isn't really anything all that good about Christianity in its present form. And despite my own religious affiliation, I'd have to say I agree.

There is a word for this. It's a word that's used often by Republicans, only they use it to speak about members of the opposition. Strangely enough, it's quite evident that Republicans are the hypocrites. They cite patriotism and honor while getting into huge scandals and openly opposing things the troops would want. This may seem like a huge generalization, but this is a blog and I'm allowed to do that: Republicans don't give a shit about what's right and wrong. There is only the Truth, and anything else is a lie.

Bleh

2008-09-30T20:41:00.000-07:00

Mood: Frustrated.

Frustrated with the state of my life, where I can't even talk to some people because either I'm embarrassed because of things I've done in the past or I'm afraid to find out what they really think of me.

Frustrated because I don't seem to be able to do even the simplest of things without messing up.

Frustrated because my friends are suddenly all needy but won't even tell me what the fucking problem is.

Frustrated because I don't think studying alone is enough to get good marks this quarter.

This is crap. It's times like these that make you want to just go to sleep, and never wake up. But persevere, we must, if only to ensure that we don't miss some moment of happiness. We know that moment will pass, and yet, in truth, that's what we all live for.

Unfortunately for many, we often go several months without a good moment. Such is life, I suppose.

EDIT(1:08PST): Eh, tired. I'm done with studying. I was only able to prepare for three of the five possible prompts, but I'm still pretty confident. I'll turn in early tonight, and wake up early tomorrow.

Oh yeah. Click here for awesome.

2008-09-29T23:41:00.000-07:00

Well, I suppose it's time for a "background" post.

I'm a fairly normal guy. I'm Asian, and enjoy typical things like anime and video games. I spend far too much time on the computer (at least TWELVE hours a day are spent on my laptop) but would love the opportunity to do something else. I'm not unpopular; I belong to a group of friends and am fairly well connected. I'm really barely passing by socially, as I don't have any defining qualities that set me apart. I'm not the best at anything, nor am I notorious for anything. I'm there if people need me, but people usually prefer to ask someone else. I have a fairly easy time making friends, but only with people that are somewhat similar to me. I'd say I'm in that "acceptable" zone. I'm told that I'm fairly good-looking, but even I can tell I don't quite have the temperament to be "popular". I like attention, but have the tendency to check myself (this is a habit that others have noticed and spoken to me about; I will often stop smiling abruptly after laughing for no reason whatsoever). As for romance, I have been interested in the same girl for about six years. I don't know what kind of qualities I look for in the opposite gender, but it may be interesting to note that the girl I mentioned isn't really even my friend at all; she's not what most people would call "nice", as she's very sarcastic and ignores people often.

I like music a lot, but am not a very talented musician. I have basic abilities in playing the piano, guitar, viola, violin, and cello, but I'm not particularly good at anything. I would like to be a skilled guitarist with a nice electric, but.. eh. I don't know what "genre" of music I prefer; I enjoy music pleasant to my ears. I listen to music in languages I don't understand as well as the ones I do. Some examples of non-English bands I enjoy are FLOW and Asian Kung-Fu Generation.

I am a church-going Christian. I belong to the Evangelical faith. However, I'm not a very devout believer, and am most certainly not what one would consider a "christfag". I can't even remember the last time I earnestly prayed or read the Bible, but I guess I do live in hope that there is someone out there looking out for me at times. I subscribe to no particular political party, but I do prefer Democrats as they seem to be slightly less hypocritical.

Well, that's me in a box. On your screen.

Awesome.

2008-09-29T20:52:00.001-07:00

A friend of mine (female, underage) was recently locked out of her computer by her dad. This displeased me, as she kept me company on AIM on late nights when I had to study for tests and such.

Fortunately, I have succeeded in formatting my USB Flash Drive to be boot-able on startup, and installed a copy of Linux and some password-cracking software to it. It took me a few tries (had to download a half-gig .iso, which is kinda tiresome when you're also downloading about 17gigs of video... on a 54.0 Mbps connection), but I finally got it in the end. So now my friend can get on and off her computer whenever she wants.

This is the reason I spend so much time on the computer. The moment I get when I pop the flash drive into my desktop, turn it on and spam F12, wait about two minutes, then see "F23F42Y44" pop up on my screen.. is priceless. And it's so much better when I know it's going towards a good cause.

Of course, that also means that no computer is safe from my diabolical schemes anymore. In goes my flash drive, out comes your passwords.

I look forward to having long conversations with the aforementioned friend as well as the lulz I'll gain from "hacking" into my other friends' computers.

So how was your day? Oh, wait. I won't be able to hear you over the sound of my own awesomeness.

Obligatory "First Post".

2008-09-28T19:59:00.000-07:00

I'm taking a break from.. everything, so I will probably update this blog faithfully. Over the next few days I'll describe my current position in life, as well as my views on several subjects. This blog exists in order that I might have a creative "outlet" of sorts, as well as input from the largest community known to man- the Internet.

Basic stats:
Name: Aaron.
DOB: 16 September, 1988
Occupation: Student
Political Party: None

Contact:
aim: xLnfinityZero
e-mail: faceless.aaron@gmail